Blog #2 _ pre beginning

Pre-time stamp- to the beginning of My Journey.

I've always been a firm believer in Christ, even at a very young age.

With my forever healing past and numerous medical issues, Issues that caused other conditions that always seem to lead to heavy weight gain, terrible anxiety, and depression. I just always found that it was good to talk to god.

He has certainly saved My Personal Behind more times than I can count.

September 2020

The Covid "world shutdown" depression, just about did me in!

Areas of my self-esteem

(I personally had thought I was almost healed from)

came crashing down.

My very thoughtful, big-hearted, sister-in-law saw me on a steady downfall.

She offered to teach me the low carb to keto lifestyle & invited me to several

painful but surprisingly very enjoyable, trial visits at Flex 45 & Title Boxing classes.

To Both of those programs, I'd like to give a HUGE SHOUT OUT! They were great!

Given the shape I was in, they even gave me workable exercises that I could do.

(By the way, if your looking for some structure in your workout, and maybe some one-on-one care. I really truly recommend Both programs.)

Now_ Back to my Downward Spiral...

Even though I had started to feel better and was losing some weight, I woke up one morning and...

I was still Very, VERY BROKEN!

I was Big enough (teetering back and forth at a 5X size) to be ripping my own stretch marks!

I began putting band-aides & medical tape strips across my self caused wounds that were bleeding. I looked in the mirror and then, Oh Boy Did I Cry! This cry was different. It felt different, like a complete and utter helplessness.

In those tears, I asked God for help. I prayed and I prayed hard.

He did not leave me, He held me afloat, He took my hand & began to open my eyes!

I felt and heard God clearly that day. The next 24 hrs were a whirlwind of tears, signs, and an almost unexplainable feeling of hope.

God had started a Journey in me.

"WHY?... WHY NOT?"

(God showed me he still had a plan)

Psalm 73:23 Yet I am always with you; you hold me by my right hand.